what's the point. apparently the google play store requires potential apps to be tested by at least 12 individuals for at least 14 days AND you need to pay a $25 fee to become a developer with the play store. in the most literal way possible, i don't have that kind of time OR money.

i've put too much into this thing to just throw it away, but i clearly have no hope whatsoever of escaping this freaking house anytime this decade, just like in the past two and a half decades. this was my last chance. my only hope. i don't have employable skills because my parents prevented me from learning them while claiming only THEY had the right to teach me them, i can't get a job online because the jobs are all in-person and too far from home, demanding physically impossible qualifications, fake listings that never get filled, or some combination of all these- i just...i have a roof over my head. i should be grateful. but i'm not.

i just want to be a person instead of an accessory that can do housework

once i figure out how to generate perlin noise and hook that up to platform/wall generation it's over for you hoes (affectionate)

oh i am SCHMOOVIN i am GROOVIN i have FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO A SPECIFIC THING IN GODOT. First a scrolling background on the main menu screen, THEN THE W O R L D

it's too early to be awaaaaaaaaaaaaaake

anyway. SO THE ANIMATION VERSUS KICKSTARTER AMIRITE FELLAS????? HOOOOOOOOOOLY SHIT I WISH I HAD MONEY SO BAAAAAAAAAAAAD

currently attempting to make a mobile game that ISN'T just ad-filled schlock (but that does have a few unobtrusive ads in it) in the efforts to make hopefully a few bucks that i can then use to:

• have money to use to back the kickstarter and hopefully get some of the perks
• prove that i don't need to have my internet access taken away for the indeterminate future
• prove to my brain that i can actually hopefully make money doing something i love (and that people can't just refuse to hire me for because THERE'S NO ONE TO HIRE ME IF I HIRE MYSELF)
• maybe back a second time for my brother who also loves the silly little stick figures???

Updated the font in the journal so the headings are also in my handwriting. Once I figure out how to make these glyphs bold I'll have unlimited power.

I've been doing a lot of downloading of programming language documentation- I got my hands on TIC-80 and I wanna be able to do stuff with it once I inevitably lose the internet. While downloading those, though, I got sidetracked and now there's this. I'll probably keep updating my offline copy and end up uploading it in batches or something, idk.

On a lighter note, if you ever wanted to know what my handwriting looks like, you're looking at it right now! :D

So, I have it on fairly good authority that my internet access is going to become extremely nonexistent in the next month or so. I figured I should at least un-Halloween this thing for the time being, though I will be leaving the Trick-or-Treat page up because I'm incredibly proud of it lmfao. Hopefully something comes up and changes things so I don't have to go completely dark for the foreseeable future, but I'll probably be tinkering with this site offline, even if I can't put any of it up online right away.

I'm basically just preparing myself to go into lockdown because it's far more likely that I'll get cut off from the internet than that I'll get hired anywhere.

Sorry for the sudden silence and then only coming back with bad news. :/